More and more good byes everyday.

 

From small ones to huge ones.

 

Saying good bye to my taxi driver today, its hard to meet someone you can talk to these days.

 

Will say bye to work tomorrow, still trying to draft a proper farewell email, altho i'm still working for the same bank.

 

I think some time after mid day it's kinda hite me, i'm really leaving!

 

This is nuts.

 

I saw the farewell card, dam, it's really happening... (Still cant work out why everyone else got a cartoon or normal one and i've got a plain white one, WITH 3 BABIES CRAWLING IN THE FRONT PAGE.... it's so out of context to the extend that i actually liked it alot... mmm.. dont know why picked it)

 

Kinda touched to see mini stories (i mean MINI stories that stretch for 10-15 lines) been written all over it.

 

Then i went to pee.

 

I always have a self reflection session when i pee.

 

In the back of my mind, i'm thinking dam, im really going.

 

The other half is like, no your not, what do you mean.. you're still gonna be here next week right?

 

Manuel and I no longer have much to talk about.

 

We'll go down and smoke in silence, every now and then i will say, Dam, i can't beleive i'm actually leaving... silence. He will said, it's gonna sack when your gone... silence...

 

Stu said he will come visit and have already looked up on the air tickets.

 

Kev is asking if i'll come back to visit.

 

Kim ask if i'm gonna call her.

 

Even Eugene agrees to go to paintball...

 

Farewell lunch is tomorrow, dont even want to go anymore...

 

Everything around me is drumming about my departure...

 

Moral of the story, don't spend too much time with people at work... they will really become part of your life...

 

Probably end up crying tomorrow... fuck, almost did today.

 

Office air is too thick these days to hold your emotions in...

 

Fuck it, i'll make the best out of my last days!

Rexy's gone.

 

My pride and joy for the past 3 years.

 

I will remember him everytime i past a red light when random idiots tries to start a drag.

 

3 years ago, i wrote a long blog on my Civic, well this time i don't even know what to say.

 

Suppose it's a different story, but it's pretty depressing either way...

 

Wont considering any replacement anytime soon.......

Spoke to my mum the other day, she told me, the entire 3 months before she came to australia, her mind was all blank.

 

I guess i can relate to that now.

 

I don't know how to feel, what to think or what to expect.

 

If someone else i know is going away, i would never ask if they're excited, i know they wouldnt know, just like how i am now.

 

I guess deep inside somewhere, i'm paranoid.

 

As much as i want to be a chinese, im not.

 

Going to a gigantic city is fucking creepy.

 

Who knows, maybe i'll fit right in, i don't go out anyway.

 

Maybe i'll hate it so bad that i'll quit my job and come back.

 

Bah, cant exactly quit my job.

 

Heard this story the other day, some dude from where i work now got promoted overseas. He quit within 3 months, went somewhere else.

 

Ironically, he applied for a job in Citi NY.

 

Few phone calls later, he got rejected, and he was promised that he would never be able to find a job in a few major US banks

 

Better not think too much about.

 

Below is a to do list,

 

1. Fill out application for shipping and put in deposit.

2. Cancel my NAB account.

3. Get rid of my car.

4. Sort out the rental agreement with both tenants.

5. Contact my china contacts. (Look for more china contacts)

6. Move everything from new house to old house.

7. Hmm thats about it...

 

PS, I'm flying on 8am Sunday, August 2nd, 2009

Contact me if you have time to catch up and we haven't already do so.

Will have a small gathering at my new house on Saturday night after i came back from paintball.

Contact me if you can make it.

 

The team at work is havin a round of leaves..

 

Still busy, i think i'll be busy till the last minute, dont know how many of my projects will be left unfinished.

 

Got my work permit today, going to get my via tomorrow.

 

Fingers cross, nothing goes wrong...

 

Its freezing, and it will be bloody burnin in 2-3 weeks time.

 

Still havent find anyone willing to ship my stuff==

 

Bah..

 

I dont even want to write a blog, my mind is all empty at this stage..

Yeah, alot happened, and i couldn't be bother recalling much.

 

Anyway, i'm leaving Sydney.

 

My flight will be on Sunday Morning 2nd of August, 2009.

 

I guess it hasn't really sunk in yet.

 

Still 3 more weeks to go, i haven't got my work permit yet and i haven't apply for my visa and obviously i haven't got my ticket.

 

But i have submit a formal resignation, like a typed up letter with my actual signature.

 

I have started packing, unpacking and throwing away alot of crap. Talking about that, i really have alot of crap. Exercise book from primary school... Bus tickets from 1997, movie tickets, gig tickets, tags from designer cloth., and tones of random cables (so random, i dont even remember people make them in such shape.-_-')

 

Apparently, most rental property over there are furnished.  So, there goes my idea of shipping the whole house over. Can't exactly bring washing machine and fridge and so on. Then again, i will still bring my guitar amp stack, and that little electric piano.

 

When you start getting rid of stuff, the feeling of departure slowly kicks in.

 

Think i should visit some old places and be full nostalgic, but i can't...

 

Argh, I guess i won't be back for quite sometime, there's not much left for me to turn back to.

 

Hmmm hope everythin works out.....