Took a day off work yesterday. Well, wasn't exactly feeling so well. I don't know if it's emotional, physical or both. Been feeling unwell for a while now, it's a list of shit put together. Had the easter break, that didn't do much, but now i am definitely feeling better again.

 

Anyway, i've been listening to alot of decent music lately. I've been lazy for quite sometime now, spending a whole year listening to Guns and Roses Appetite for destruction, then went off to Lynard Skynard, Robert Johnson etc, the music was great, but it's more about the feeling and lyric. Being listening to Tokyo Jihen lately and realised it's a whole new world. Psychedelic alternative at it's best. Alot of Jazzy element put into a post modern context. What more can you ask for?

 

Then i went on and starting to listening to some of 崔建's music. I can't beleive i live this long with out hearing any of he's songs. Still remember back in days when songs with no guitar solo will automatically switch me off. Oh well, it's a shame to live 23 years without hearing 一无所有. It's definitely up there with "stairway to heaven" and "Sweat Child O'Mine", not to mention the political implication it had with the 89 incident.

 

What surprised me more is that out of the 7 albums he release till now, he experimented funk, rock, chinese rock, punk and even rap, which ultimately initiated the popularity of these genres in China.

 

On a side note, i want to put a comment about that "Male Chinese Idol" program in China. It SUCK. I still recall watching the promo video of that program in a chinese kareoke place, a bunch of pretty boys dressed up in 80's bondage rock outfit, singing some poppiers than thou song. Whatever gets you off is cool with me, i suppose it's good for the economy at the time. What SHITS me is this ShanDong guy who covered classic songs like <<蚂蚁>>. Now nothing wrong with covers if they do it right, but jumping around, smiling and rolling your eyes when singing about the difficult life of the 0.9 billion farmers in China is quite offensive. Jihad on him, he's supporters and the show.

That's a pretty length side note. -_-'

 

I want to keep this next part for Wikipedia. Friend have criticised it's reliability during a random conversation we had on the weekend. After all, it can be edited by anybody and people who doesn't like the comment can edit it.

 

Well, every information presented to us is in a way Bias in the modern world. I still recall reading about 89 incident and alot of other chinese sensitive topic on Microsoft Encarta. Believe it or not, it does sound quite bias, at least failed to state the different opinion.

 

Recently, i've been doing alot of research on Wiki. The best part about it is that on such sensitive topic, it always provide argument for both sides while trying to sound as informative as possible. Having it around made me feel like i have another 20 brains in backup. Well at least i haven't find anything wrong from it so far.

 

Been reading alot of interesting books in the Toilet lately. It's a very affective way to spend your time, especially when you get home around 12am daily. Kinda in the middle of a Fortune Telling book, i dug up from i don't remember where. Didn't go into the details, since it reminded me too much about Math, but it's nice to get a basic understanding of the whole method and theory behind it. Thanks to my dad who underline all the important bits=.=

 

Another side note, Sagitarius is half archer half horse. Centaurs. It's fucked when you try so hard and still wipe that half horse out of your system.....

 

Below are a list of things i wanted to do before the end of the year,

 

Quit smoking - I think i've reach the stage when the addiction and habbit became the only reason i'm still smoking. It's no longer for enjoyment.

 

Read 四书五经 - Being an old school chinese, I always felt so uneducated without much exposure to these traditional text.

 

Find a chinese version of Han Dan Ko Gi - The korean history book which recorded the rise and fall of the ancient korean empire Han Kuk, supposingly existed around 9800 B.C.

 

Finish my Song which i'm 1/3 way through.

 

GO TO THE GYM.

I have never been big on news.

Usually something happen, will take a week to get to me.

 

It's been a bit better recently, when you have an office of ppl, and a manager that watches 3 channel's worth of news every morning==... not to mention the SMH subscriber who's always on the opinion's page 24/7.

 

Then again, i have a selective source of news condering people around with updated news source are all white. I hear about things like wollongong council sex scandal, and random stuff like that.

 

This tibet thing's been on the news for a while, never knew what exactly happened. I see interesting lines on people's facebook status 'say diulei lomo to dalai lama'... but i never when to read about it until today.

 

I suppose the world hates chinese just like they used to hate the jews. If you show them a Chinese flag, they automatically think about dictatorship. Funny, i was wearing my arafat t-shit today. 9 out of 10 people saw it reckons he's a terrorist. On the other hand, you get SHITHEADs bragging on about Dalai Lama's nobel peace prize. Show just change the definition of terrorist to, enemies of the western world.

 

I remember we had a riot in redfren few years back. Where goes the international recognition on that? Media coverage? So the aborigines are not worth mentioning anymore? Give them their land back. That's what you call a genocide. How many of them were killed when the britsh first landed? To that random ignorant person from the Greens, if your not planning to give this country back to the aborigines, go home and smoke your pot.

 

Then there's Dalai calling the chinese invasion a "CULTURE GENOCIDE". If you ask me or anyone with a bit of sense, the biggest culture genocide is committed by U.S fucking A. They're proud of the fact that they have no culture, yet they want to enforce it upon the rest of the world. Looking at the wave of globalisation, watching all the traditions get sucked in and replaced by your drive by fast food culture, we the fuck are you talking about. If Tibet is free from china. Within 10 years, there's gonna be meccas everywhere. Who's gonna go pray and shit where the's drug, sex, rock n roll.

 

Fuck. This whole thing really shits me. Dalai is innocent, he's not involved at all. FUCK YEAH. Being the spiritual leader in an old school place like that, i seriously doubt that he's not aware of what will happen before hand. Even if he did not participate in it, he would have encourage it or at least give it a go ahead, before it happen. In a critical time like this, if the Chinese government were to make a big deal out of this, they will be biggest loser. Yet, you hear all these human rights committ jumping around.

 

I'M SORRY CHAIRMAN MAO DID NOT LEARN FROM THE BRITISH SETTLERS. HE DIDN'T WIPE OUT THE ENTIRE POPULATION IKE WHAT HAPPEN TO THE AMERICAN INDIANS AND THE ABORIGINES. OTHER WISE WE WILL NEVER HAVE TO HEAR ABOUT THESE BULLSHIT AGAIN.

最近大脑比较迟钝。

 

一直沉浸在自己的世界里面。那里有很多声音，反复的讨论着相同的话题。回音，加上失真的效果，贝司提高。

 

人与人之间因为因为怨恨而聚集，在旋涡中挣扎。

 

 

外界，生活在继续着。

 

半夜醒来，喝水，点烟，打开了一部前几天无意中找到的短片。

 

摇晃视角，泛黄的景象。

 

在旋律里...

Saturday smashed.

 

3 soccer games in a roll, under the sun. This is seriously not jason. Wearing those japanese school girl length socks and soccer boots feels seriously funny, well at least knew i know that i'm not a cross dresser.

 

Had a detour on the way home....

 

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Home, got smashed once again. Stright to bed. Slept till mid night, got up, went back to sleep.

 

It's already Sunday. I don't know what i did for the whole day, before i know it, it's already over.

 

Mmmm..

 

Goin to COB tomorrow, argh, better bring some lunch==

You buy furniture.  You tell yourself, this is the last sofa I will ever need in my life.  Buy the sofa, then for a couple years you're satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you've got your sofa issue handled.  Then the right set of dishes.  Then the perfect bed.  The drapes.  The rug.  Then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you.  ~Fight Club

 

 

Warum sind, drückte ich noch nieder.

 

Wenn die Depression ist, wird weggehen.

 

Noch klingelte keiner noch. Das scheißt mich voll.

 

Es ist mein Leben, und es beendet eine Minute auf einmal. Was ist, werde ich damit tun?

 

Warum tun, denke ich sogar an Scheiße wie das.

 

Ich dont weiß.

 

Diese Sorgen ich.

 

Ich will meinen Kopf zu einer festen Backsteinmauer zerschlagen, aber ich bin ohne Versicherung des Tods durch Unfall verheiratet.

 

Vielleicht ist es dieser tai shui Geschäft. Ich muss anfangen, meine versehene helle rote Unterkleidung zu tragen. Nach Jahren, Boxer zu tragen, können Sie nicht wirklich zu normalem underpant annehmen. Gefühle entweder zu enthüllend oder wie das Tragen von nichts überhaupt. Wenn ich eine Frau bin, bin ich die am konservativsten angekleidete Frau aus der kompletten Islam-Welt.

 

Vielleicht ist es ein physisches Ding. Mein Körper fühlt sich komisch danach auf und von der Übungsroutine?

 

Vielleicht ist es Ursache-Leben bei der Arbeit ist so ernstlich ganz.

 

Auf jede Weise, alle diese blutig

 

Einheitskopf ist von nach Korea seit ein paar Wochen.

 

Zeit, um alle Projekte einzuwickeln und sie anzuziehen, hält.

 

Ich kann einen Uhrkette-Streber, ein alter kindischer asiatischer Mann in der Praxis, einem festen Stier überleben, aber ich strenge mich an, 34 Jahren der Menschensachkenntnis gegenüberzustehen....

 

Auswahl 1, Rückzug, spielt es Safe und Kälte

 

Auswahl 2, Kampf dafür und lebend im Konflikt

 

Auswahl 3, Wählen Sie.

 

Auswahl 4, Komplott.

 

Was zum Teufel..

 

Gerade einige zufällige Gedanken, hat keine echte Lebendsrelevanz.

Besprechen Sie bitte nichts oben mit mir persönlich.

 

Ich werde böse sein, wenn Sie taten.

 

Danke.

 

Year 2008 is a bad year.

 

I shall seek stability. Be humble and low key.

 

Avoid travelling, avoid and irretional decisions.

 

FUCK THAT.

 

Felt like shit for a week.

 

It's time to get things sorted.

 

So i went back to the old school mid night spamming session.

 

I don't trust people. I shouldn't have. It's still early. Shall act while i can.

I'm glad that i have finally finish the film.

 

It's heavy.

 

This is the kind of movie you sit in a dark room with nothing better to do.

You watch it by yourself. Then light a cigarrete, and think about it.

Ok, lets write a proper review for this film, it surely deserve it.

 

Let me start with the things i like. First, the cinematography is truely

amazing. Late 19th century america. Broad, open, emptiness. 20 Minutes of

absolute silence, yet, your still focused. Like the title, there will be

blood, and your expecting for it.

 

The violent in this film is awsome. No here and there cheesy build up. Just

simply smack and done. You see blood, you hear it comming, you can even smell

it in the air.

 

Moving on to the music. Being a fan of radiohead, i love their psychodelic

influence. Music is all about stepping outside the boundary (cliche scales and

order). The score is great, reminds me alot of 'The Shinning' at the start.

Then it changes, and every track fits in perfectly with the atmosphere of the

film.

 

Daniel Day Lewis is a brilliant actor. Very convincing being an oil man. Now,

this is the turning point of this review. I agree that he's an amazing actor,

and this is a beautiful film, but i have failed to appreciate this 2

dimensional character. He is truely evil, overwhelmed with greed and fury, but

i do like to know why.

 

At the start, the patrait of humble country life have turn against the main

character. Making the audience sympethetic about what was expected to happen.

Then you see the church, and think, shit, these guys are nuts, just blow them

up.

 

Moving on, since this film is based on an extract from the novel 'Oil', there

is really not that much material to stretch for 2.5 hours. First 20 minutes

was fine, I liked the church, I liked the son going deaf, I like the 'brother'

and their late night conversations, but have these build up led to?

Then there's the ending. The ENDING. The ending i committ myself 2.5 hours

over a spam of 3 days for. Well, the ending was alright. A great releif. It

could have use a bit more violent. Based on Lewis's character and he's

helplessness towards the church, he could have bring a Dogville to the area.

Then again, it would have been a very different film if he did.

After the closing credit jump up, i couldn't beleive it's ended already. So

where goes the ending i'm waiting for? I want a twist that echoes back this

2.5 hour of great cinematography. I want something that justify the purpose of

the film. Great ending is Seven, Fight Club, Saw II, Match Point... This is

merely a cheap trick to get audience excited again and give a thumbs up for

their 2.5 hours of suffering.

 

Alright, that is a bit harsh. I guess i have missed the point of the movie. So

i went back, browse through it, read reviews and trying to explain this whole

thing. Kinda like the 'Emporer's New Cloth' in a way. I need to understand the

reason behind this film being such hyped up success. After all, it looks alot

more like a DENDY film no-one ever heard of, with little flower signs all over

the DVD cover, i suppose i would appreciate it more that way.

 

I found reviews. Positive ones mostly. People have comment on the

cinematography, tick, music score, tick, deniel day lewis, tick... All the

right ingredience does not make a good film. I start to doubt if half of these

people actually liked the film, or they simply trying to convince themselve

and the others that they've spend 2.5 hours on a dry and empty film, they need

to back themselve up to feel a little better.

 

Fortunately, i came across a negative review. One of kind. It did not start

with the length, or how boring it is, but instead actually posting the

question of why Deniel Plainville is so plain. Better yet, i saw a comment on

the review, that answered all my questions.

 

'This movie is simply an indictment of society. We never saw Mr. Plainview's

soul because he had none. We never understood what drove him because neither

did he; he simply moved forward. This film is about how society is nothing

more than a collection of individuals who focus on the development of "more"

than on the development of the soul. This film is about how even those who

profess to focus on the soul ultimately succumb to materialism. This film is

about how the only individuals who are not part of this downward spiral are

those who do not particiapte in it--social outcasts.

 

Of course we never saw what drove any of these, in Plainview's words,

"people," and that was the point. We are those "people." Just like Plainview

we all work towards a goal of what? Escaping from the "people" around us by

retiring. Getting a boat and sailing around the world. Buying that piece of

land and setting up a ranch. That's what our society does. And how do we do

it? At the expense of ourselves and others. That's why we should all echo

Plainview's final words of the film for truly we are all finished.' -

Medvedman, Rotten Tomatoes

 

In conclusion, I don't like the film. It's not my type. I like the darkness

and cinematography, but i can't stand the metanarrative story line. It's 2008,

please embrace the wave of post-modernism. However, i must say, this is a

great film in the sense that it opened an open end for countless

interpretations.

Before i start this blog, just want to say, there's alot of things in life, people just can't explain. For instance, MSN space never work the first time you try to save a blog, have to go in.. type in stuff in title and content, go out, and come back in again. That's how computer works. There's always a trick to it, and that's how i like it..

 

Anyway, growing up listening to heavy metal i have been through the whole goth stage. Long black hair, trench coat, black nails... etc etc I always consider metal a good bridge to all kinds of music. You can simple look at where it started and go into rock, RnB, then blues, and each breaks into various sub genre... You can get lost in a world like this.

 

I always thought i knew music, but the other day i got myself into DJing... man the world changed. I mean, i played beat mania, the first 2 anyway, so i kinda know all these stuff, but i can't really distiguish the difference. The fact that everything is electronic made it possible for people with no friends to sit at home and writing their own stuff. Argh, havent wrote a blog for too long, with alot to talk about, i've lost my point..

 

Anyway, i like acid. Always like those trippy music, and stuff that sound surreal. That's why i like opeth so much, then move on to radiohead, robert johnson.... there's a word for these kind of stuff, psychedelic... mmmm

 

Move on, i've got a stuck, i mean like 80 + CDs from my manager. From soul, RnB to techno, funky house and Trance. Well half of that CD stack is hiphop. Well i know i used to hate Hip Hop. I mean only people like DANNY, listen to hiphop. Hiphop is for kids. It's so seriously mainstream it's not funny. But man, i never realize, it used to cost 80 bucks back in the 90s to get a pretty big hiphop CD, since it's actually underground. 

 

Have to say, ICE CUBE is cool. Looking at now days, all the rappers talk about pimps and hoes, get rich and random stuff, he goes on and talk about fuck tha police. I mean, anyone can come up and say fuck tha police, but he actually writes down lyrics with meanings and committ himself into fighting against racial prejudice. I mean we've all seen american history X, that stuff is real. He talks about the hood, the real hood, there's no nigga and cash, just bunch of niggas been poor, trying to survive. The guy's a multimillionaire now, and still live in he's same neighbourhood, he puts he's money back into the hood, trying to improve the public facilities and shit. Above all, this guy's got some decent sense of humour.

 

The there's wu tang clan. I think i've talked about them before, but yeah songs will C.R.E.A.M. will make songs like "Life Struggle" in shame. Both talking about growing up and the life they been through, both have similar meaning i.e. Cash Rules Everything Around Me. But C.R.E.A.M. goes on about a kid, with a mother being a ho, selling little drugs to survive end up in the jail, etc etc...

 

Fuck, America is a hole, the biggest economy my ass. Getting rich from the slaves, now all people see is the shine of wallstreet, while all the neighbourhood slowly rotten away.