深夜，闷热的天气。看了部兴奋的电影，感觉很累。躺下来，吸了跟烟。头又开始沉沉的，好像积累了多余的水分。隐约听见外面仓促路过的车子，还有夏天晚上不知名的声音。猫，睡了吧？

 

昨晚和旧同学喝酒，几年没见了，样子变化不少。说著以前同学的近况，有人进了精神病院，有人累累自杀，有人重复的放弃著自己人生的选择，有人默默的走著自己的路。时间过得很快呢。喝著酒，有一句，没一句的搭著，忽然觉得，本质上的东西或许并没有改变。

 

回家以后，天已泛白。猫爬在肩膀上，我，似乎在考虑。作为一个彻底的怀疑主义者，我对人生的各种可能性充满了兴趣。虽然始终迷茫，但还算乐观吧。

 

天亮后，从机场载了朋友回家。看著在沙发上和猫一起睡著的他，忽然觉得，另一种生活也不坏啊。

 

人总有选择自己生活的责任，又一年过去了。喧嚣的落幕下，多少有点伤感。听著Chat Baker的声音，喝著冰的JIM BEAM，新年快乐。

 

PS Quote of the Day - This music is the fushion of jazz and funk, called junk. <<The Robots>>

猫来了，在窗口下徘徊了三个晚上。一直很可怜的叫著，住在WRX的下面。很小的猫，灰色的毛，很聪明。今天把他弄了进来，有个床位，就住下了。下星期再考虑其他的麻烦问题吧。因为不清楚是男是女，所以起了个名字叫HARUKI。算是在HARUKI的世界里面经常出现的猫吧。很高傲，很孤僻。哪天猫老了，我也该步入人生的困惑期。朋友忽然失踪，而我也会莫名其妙的卷入寻羊冒险吧？很悲哀的故事呢。

 

好了，我病了。看了最近一年的BLOG。发现自己好像身体很差。不过享受了一天SICK LEAVE，觉得好像也不坏。圣诞期间，人就是比较懒吧。下星期得开始好好努力了，不然衣服又不合适了。

 

说起衣服，昨晚病了。睡不著，所以跑去www.yoox.com买了一堆东西。又花了一个星期的钱。好了，下个月开始努力存钱，考虑一下未来了。

 

前几天上班，和中学同学在太阳下面喝咖啡。过去的黑社会老大，现在已经是个SUPERVISOR了。他感叹身边的朋友都没读大学，很多人都还在混，而他这个老大反而自己退了出来。觉得短短几年见，大家变化都很大。是啊，生活就是这样吧，谁都有选择自己生活的权力。有的十几岁就到处打工，有的二十几岁就得负担全家人的生活，有的老大了还穿得像个EMILY，也有的一点都没变。生活就是这样继续著，话说回来，就好像猫一样。抛弃了自由，得到了稳定。这是我想要的吧？

 

看见猫就想起<<寻羊冒险>>，无病呻吟一下，就这样。

在這個普天同慶的日子﹐我忽然多了一天假。星期天晚上﹐照樣睡不著覺。今年過得很匆忙﹐完全沒有看到時間的影子。走出過去的癱瘓生活﹐面對現實已經一年了。發現﹐無論哪裡﹐人還是人。看來現代人的生活里﹐勾心鬥角已經成為了世界的一部份﹐從很小的年齡開始﹐慢慢的消磨著你的天真善良。不知什麼時候﹐說話只是為了溝通﹐笑容只是為了禮貌﹐真實的世界只存在與假想和推理的空間了。

 

說回來。年初的時候生活一團糟。閒了三年長假﹐爸爸忽然病倒了。跑去做個體檢都能被醫院扣留。說是嚴重的KIDNEY FAILURE﹐剩下不到10%的FUNCTION。然後就莫名其妙的在醫院住了下來。沒有症狀﹐沒有煩惱。開始安慰媽媽﹐打理小店﹐每天光顧醫院﹐還得讀書。聖誕節就吃了頓飯﹐生日都忘了。那時每天一早起來開店﹐打瞌睡的﹐在極度繁忙﹐卻極度空虛的情況下熬到大學畢業。前途一片茫然。那段看了很多書﹐從村上的KAFKA BY SHORE﹐到OEUDIPUS REX。感受到了EXISTENTIALISM的形成和古希臘戲劇的可愛。

 

為了徹底的進入正常生活﹐決定開始運動。然後從一個連DUMBELL都沒用過的初學者進化成一個一天FOCUS一個MUSCLE GROUP還開始PROTEIN DIET的健身狂人。體重一直出於浮動狀態。

 

因為忽然的忙碌﹐忽然多了點錢﹐於是又開始研究汽車。在三月的時候﹐終於拋棄了原來考慮的ALFA ROMEO SPIDER﹐NISSAN 350Z和HONDA INTEGRA﹐而買了WRX。一輛看起來很普通﹐裡面也什麼都沒有﹐但能讓你開得很高興的車子。同時也明白了改車的基本原理﹐終於能算個TYPICAL ASIAN了-_-'.

 

回想起來﹐那時候開始進入JAZZ階段﹐認識了DIZZY GLISPIE和JOHN COLTRANE﹐愛上了BEPBOP。哦﹐在壓力最大的日子里﹐一直都在聽LOST LONELY BOYS的HEAVEN。墨西哥三兄弟的樂隊﹐沒有任何商品的做作﹐一切都很隨意﹐好像STEVIE RAY VAUGH還是JIMI HENDRIX的再世一樣。充滿了自由。另外﹐弄了台鋼琴回家﹐開始自己亂來﹐能彈出點模樣來。雖然完全沒學任何東西﹐但自己即興起來還是很有感覺的。哦﹐還有台買回來放著的DIGITAL 8 TRACK RECORDER﹐明年一定會開始用的-_-'

 

終於哪天開始了找工作的生活﹐居然在兩個星期後的第一個INTERVIEW就誤打誤撞的進了MACQUARIE做TEMP。然後地獄形式開始了2個月的﹐85小時PER WEEK﹐上班族生涯。那時候胖得厲害﹐每天8﹕30到10﹕30﹐七天。明白了銀行真不是人混的﹐也得到了相對的自信。

 

工作結束以後﹐我開始了我的ROAD TRIP。然後忽然出現在TASMANIA。經歷了一段很有意義的精神旅途。在昏睡了3天以後﹐看著旋轉的天花板﹐感覺到了神的存在。很現實呢。那段時間看了很多電影﹐真的很多。發現了WOODY ALLEN﹐愛上了PULP FICTION。還有王家衛﹐CITY OF GODS﹐太多了。

 

當然﹐找工作的日子還在繼續。在很古怪的情況下﹐又經歷了一個星期短暫的TELEMARKETING。還是覺得TELEMARKETING是很偉大的工作。如果一個人能混TELEMARKETING﹐他就什麼都能成功。每天不停的騷擾﹐沒完沒了的兜售意外保險。居然還讓我賣出了不少。-_-'當然﹐最後還是忍受不了﹐離開了。覺得人生第一次放棄﹐卻沒有應該的內疚感。還好得到了身邊朋友的支持。

 

然後﹐當然又跑了去INTERVIEW。被問到CITYBANK你知道嗎。我說﹐嗯﹐知道。在CITY有個小BRANCH的銀行。到現在為止還一直印以為榮。最後居然讓我以FAIL了這門科目的成績單﹐混進了DERIVATIVE OPERATION。然後很快樂的過了三個月。很完美的工作時間﹐晚上有車送回家﹐公司有GYM﹐臭味相投的SUPERVISOR﹐而且還有一大群煙鬼。What more can i ask for?於是我瘦了很多。今天晚上上街遇到兩群很久沒見的朋友﹐居然都遠遠看著﹐不確定是不是我了.Hoohoho 最重要的﹐是開始明白自己的未來了﹐大概的計劃了一下﹐知道前面的選擇。

嗯這樣一說﹐今年其實還挺充實的。發生了很多很多事情﹐我也認識了不少新人。雖然現在社交生活還是將近空白﹐每天下班回家看看書然後第二天一早去運動﹐也就一個星期過去了。但還是覺得前面的路比較清楚了。

其實今年明白了很多事情。慢慢的開始了解自己。離開了原來的影子﹐看清楚了善變內心的背後。起碼現在﹐我已經不再相信我的CREDIT DEBT人生觀﹐也不再人為地把人生解釋成命運了。不過﹐命運的齒輪還在轉動﹐我感覺到了。

 

得感謝的人﹕

 

一﹐讓我找不到工作也心安理得﹐找到了以後辭職也心安理得的人。

Jason Ly,  陪我坐在GEORGE ST路邊﹐感嘆人生。

臭XX﹐ 讓我得到了了結﹐從過去解脫了出來。

小月一家人﹐ 讓我不再CYNICAL ABOUT LIFE。

WRX﹐ 讓我很滿足﹐真的很滿足﹗

同性戀女人﹐ 讓我看了不少電影。

匡﹐ 嗯﹐她好像沒干什麼好事﹐算了﹐雖然在她的誤導下被弄得半死﹐還是感謝她在FASHION上的教育吧。

 

ANYWAY﹐聖誕快樂﹐收到了很可愛的KEY RING和GLORIA JEANS的MUG。嗯﹐被了解是很幸福的事情呢。

 

PS, 加了不少相片，算是交代一下2006年发生的事情吧。

 

PSS 继续，睡不著觉，跑去找到了年初的New Year Resolution:

 

Been labeled a brand whore lately. Yes i am. Got some excess cash, nowhere to blow it, lost some weight, thought it would be a good idea to invest it in self improvement. Look, i'm not gonna wear glow in the dark adidas jumper with a gigantic Gucci bag, in fact, anyone with a monogram bag is just wrong.

 

So i would like to bring out the cliche speech about how i'm not ur typical blonde brand whore. In fact i do look into the fashion world with great relevence to art and culture. I mean after all, i do look into the idea of each designer and sort of trying to understand where they coming from. I like Antonio Marras for that matter, but i cant afford any of he's stuff. Kinda oxymoron to bring back the whole economic depression image while charging people 300bucks for a t-shirt.

 

I like Costume National, Les Homme and for that matter alot of the Gay designers. But i can never picture myself EVER wearing anything Reberto Cavelli or Dolce Gabanna, well maybe their jeans. Thats about all.

 

Now, brands that i'll actually buy. Richmond. Yes, its woggy. But i do drive a WRX and wear polo shirt all year long. Considering Fake London Genius as well. I like Paul Smith stuff, but i'll never look good wearing a shirt.

 

In the post xmas period. Planning to get myself.

 

1 pair of ripped jeans.

 

1 pair of 'Presentable' jeans.

 

Several T-shirts long sleeve/short sleeve

 

A jacket, Yes i need 1 more jacket, or blazer.

 

A nice pair of Shoes.

 

And some miscelleneous work cloth, ie business shirt that actually fits.

 

Oh, and a pair of belt would be nice.

 

Hmm alright thats my wish list. I shall go to sleep now. Sorry about sounding more and more like helen, i cant help it. I'm a taurus, let me go on about spending.

What have i been up to lately? i dont know. Cant sleep for a while, been drunk, depressed and nostalgic. Not very tired. i think ive been slacking off from my gym session. Havent been running much anymore. Been off gym for 4 days last week. Getting back into it, realize it really make a huge difference. Anyway, here i am, once again, i suppose i'm normal. Slightly guilty still, yes, i hate myself for what i am. Of course, it wont affect the narcisistic side of me at all, still hyper-egocentric.

 

Realize the proper way to smoke is to swallow everything. I did. Finally realize, dam 40 milligram cigarretes are so deadly. Never been dizzier. Feels like pot on stereods.

 

Met this guy i used to know from music. He havent change a single bit, but cant seem to even recognize me anymore. Dam, im sold out.

 

Have a good conversation with my driver today. I like him. I like people who plan out what they gonna do and stick to it. Even if it means for them to go on the road not taken. I guess in a sense i can never have that kind of courage, ive chosen to go with flow regardless of how i try to diguise it. Argh, im so shallow.

 

Had a huge argument with Helen, dont even remember wat its about, still angry, very angry! oh well, i'll get over it after another smoke.

 

Merry Xmas, that the response i get from head of taiwan treasury operation. Nice lady..

 

Too unconscious to say anything right now. Off to bed soon.

 

Oh, on a positive note, ive decided to run a mix net ball team to compete in the corporate games next year. Its the only sport that random noob like me will stand a chance to win. So, yeh, i'll be very gay for the coming period.

Another week went by. Not feeling so well, its the weather, maybe i shouldnt go sun baking in the afternoon. Or maybe its the drownsy and drunk feeling you get after an afternoon nap. Who knows. Smoking is bad, but i just feel like i needed it for the time. Somehow i can write alot better in the current state of mind.

 

Saw Erog.. Ero..that dragon film whatever you call it. Its pretty gay. Well the two blonde farm boys playing sword and hugging each other scene in the hays... Definitely very gay. And wats with the post modern medievil clothing? Farm boys look like their all wearing their designer outfit, leather pants and leather vest with some long sleeve polo shirt? what the hell's that. Not to mention the black terrorist in the mountain, wearing chinese empirial robe. Man, people hiding in the mountains should just look dirty and suffering. Oh well, it suck, but yeh, its a trilogy and you'll miss out on alot of the conversation if you dont see it.

 

Not feeling so well. Tired. I should sleep soon

 

Ps Xmas party pics came out, Dam so many very bad angle of me in it. Tried to delete them, but some crazy ppl actually managed to set a password on the common drive-_-'

Been through another week of random stress. Not in a very healthy state of mind knowing that the gym is going to be close over Xmas for 2 weeks. Man what am i gonna do for those 14 god dam days, it's not like i can be mentally prepared to keep up the effort of hardcore training without the convinience of a company Gym. Disturbing thoughts.

 

Well, let me cut to the point. Went to work on wednesday, received a MYER gift card of 100bucks. Dam, i was so excited for a whole hour, thinking its David Jones. Anyway, need to invest it wisely during post Xmas period.

 

15th Again, got paid, very happy. Healthy amount of overtime. Dam, so scared of next month's pay slip, knowing that i've been deprived of overtime for the past 2 weeks. Some how ive still managed to snatch a hour overtime per week. Life's hard being an entry level working class...-_-'

 

Received three Xmas Cards today. Dam, this is the first time since Primary school that i've actually received unexpected Xmas Card. Two from previous and current Job Agency. Nice cards too. Now who say Job Agency are snobby to all their clients=P THrid one, SURPRISINGLY from Prada. They slip their sale announcement along with a Xmas card. Wont go into detail, before people start labeling me as the brand-whore that i already am.

 

Bought a glowy star staff today for the children's cancer foundation. Very gay, makes me look like a fairy.

 

Ive finally got my proper cab driver. Arab, mid-age, doesn't talk much, drive fast. Above all, never mention about seat belts and doesn't celebrate Xmas. What more can you ask for? Well, now I just need to prepare a christian driver, during the month of Ramadan. Hmmm..

Well one thing to note. The Japs are recovering from their on going recession. Never realize their interest rate slowly went up from 0.04% to 0.7% in just 6 months time. Feeling very sorry for all those that suffered from an interest swap with them.

 

Everyone had a big say about my jeans at work, never realize people actually peep down and check out your side pocket and was able to imimidiately recognize the brand. Tsk tsk, young people now days.

 

Anyway, i've decided to give a go at writing in english. After all, its time for me to leave the comfort zone and explore the 'unknown' for once. Good bye to the FOB pride Jason.

最近很閒﹐所以吸煙很多。脾氣變得很大﹐對許多事情都不耐煩。偏偏麻煩的事情又一直發生﹐真是不幸的Year End。工作到8﹕30以後開始進入空白期。很閒。無聊得很離譜。還好經理走了﹐可以肆無忌憚的大聲說話。很爽。據說每年射手運氣到了。希望能順利點。如果週末的事情CANCEL了﹐我應該會非常非常非常不爽。不過﹐算了。不是我的問題。

空白吗？哪里都没去，谁都没见。买了件LONSDALE背心，和妈妈吃了顿晚饭。不知怎么的，很累。

 

周五圣诞PARTY，我居然在唱周劫轮的歌。太可怕了。还唱了BEAT IT。然后大家开始以超级古怪的眼神看我。大概和看到MICHAEL JACKSON差不多吧。发现喝多了，人会变得有趣起来。像做黑人的印度人，想做ASIAN的白人，说话很有韵味的小白脸，还有开始大声RAP的经理。工作以前都是很了不起的人物吧。

 

然后发生了很不幸的事情。吃了龙虾，螃蟹类型的东西。没有吐壳。被卡住了。留了在肉里。整个周末都在想办法弄出来。结果好像越刺越深。后来开始用刀子割开附近的肉。用针桶。用钉子和锤子打开牙齿。都没有成功。流了很多血吧。很痛苦呢。其实根本没什么问题，可以完全不理。若干年后老了，牙齿掉了再拿来看看，还会感慨一番吧。可是，我是一个有强迫症的人！！

 

这几天看了很多电影，纪录片什么的。闲起来，时间还是可以打发的。

 

被HOTEL ROWANDA感动了。很沉重的电影，大学时候在学联合国法律时候，大概的了解过情况，还做了PRESENTATION。可是数据毕竟是数据。世界就是这样吧，几十万人的死亡，很平淡的变成数据。这里新闻却能以一直被困在隧道地下的小鸟奇迹被救而大惊小怪一番。真是，很可爱的世界呢。

 

大雨中，人们缓慢的走上车子，留下的是被遗忘的人群。连NIGGER都不是的AFRICAN。背景是非洲儿童的歌声，MAJOR调子，声音很舒服。美丽得太讽刺了。像里面记者说的，大家只会感叹一下，然后继续吃饭。算了，自己也就这样，看了以后隐约想起毕业的时候，和芬兰教授说过的，要做一个对世人有帮助的人，很惭愧呢。

 

还看了，I'm A Sex Addict。很可爱的MOCUMENTRY。活在SATRE感情思维下的虚伪男人，拍拍电影，吸吸大麻。很有深度的小制作。

 

还看了，BEAUTIFUL MIND。大学时候，就我一个没看过，而上课都没办法和人讨论。终于看了。不错。哪天我也会变成那样吧。身边的朋友互相都几乎不认识。哪个不是真实的话，会很困惑呢。

 

还懒散的晒了太阳，弹了吉它。写了些东西。很平静的生活呢。

 

书来了，过一两个星期再开始看吧==

 

和很久沒聯絡的朋友聊天﹐他說前幾天夢見我。很傷感的開車經過﹐有不好的預感呢-___-“

停止运动三天。很疲劳。不知道为什么。每天还是同样时间醒来，坐在电脑前面发呆。被称为“PERFECT FOR OUTDOOR SMOKING”的天气，总带著点夏天的沉闷。过了最繁忙的日子，现在开始恢复正常。每天11点左右能到家，看看BLOG，重复的听著同一首歌。

 

身边有人抱怨著一年的坎坷，有人忧郁的寻找工作，有人经历著纠缠不清的错误，也有人重温著中学类型的青涩甜蜜。好像一切都和我很远似地，又能不带感情的看著世界了。

 

路过一个不认识人的VLOG，很有趣的孩子。一心想著去日本混，过DANCER的生活。还给五年后的自己留言。回头看看大概那时候，我也是这样吧。真怀念红色苍蝇眼镜的年代呢。那个飞机仓库似地房间，永远没人投诉噪音的屋子。每次路过的时候，好像还能隐约听见SLAYER的鼓声。

 

节庆的日子，街上满是鲜艳的服装。一张张稚气的脸上带著点酒后的红昏，毕业了吧？在城市的正中好像感觉不到所谓的愉快，疲倦的面孔，沉思的眼神。

 

为什么我还在挣扎，我也不知道。在完全忘记自己的时候，我开始了解自己了。到最后，自己还是自己。无论再怎么以深沉，华丽，渊博，怪异来掩饰，最后看到的还是镜子后面的自己。从极端叛逆到绝对服从，只存在于瞬间。自我人格洁癖实在是很痛苦的强迫症。或许因为这样，我很喜欢和那位朋友说话。每次得到理解和安详。怎么在这个懒散的国家生活了那么久，都没有受到一点民风的影响呢-_-'

 

算了，周末很闲，有兴趣的留言预约吧。如果没有计划，应该会去晒太阳，再写点什么吧。

又过一个生日。好久没庆祝过了。今年居然能听人唱生日歌，很陌生，很感动。

 

运动修养期，三天。因为各种理由，所以星期五恢复正常。虽然好像会影响，可是肌肉还是需要休息的。

 

最近因为MP3没有了，胡乱找了些DANCE MUSIC来凑合。很难听，还是RNB有趣。很喜欢AKON和ENINEM那首。一直都在哼著。

 

星期五的XMAS PARTY有人提议化妆。在考虑以OLD SCHOOL HYDRA形象出现。那个SUPERVISOR说他要弄PAI-MEI (KILL BILL那个-__-')形象.....

 

下个周末又有旅行。有专业人士计划了。应该很有趣。那个MARG认识的同事，居然要去中部石头。好羡慕存了一年ANNUAL LEAVE的人呢=+=...

 

发现手头又开始紧了。没钱。看看日历，下星期五又到月中。时间过得很快呢。年底加薪时间也快到了，期待啊。。。

Clock is ticking, yes, im aging.

 

Went to yumcha early in the morning. In hurstville. Smoked on the street, got approached by Morman Missionaries. Scared the hell out of them, when i did a Brad Pitt in 12 Monkey impersonation. Maybe they'll have doubts in their fatih, or maybe they got used to it. Who knows, very happy to see myself in the new style, yet still produce quality daily adventures of that sort.

 

21st is over, still the same old me. Smoke alot, digs rubber bend ball making, watch cricket for the sake of it, spends hell lot of money on conspigious consumption.

 

Spoke to a cute taurus dude at work today, find that taurus in general are so repetitive. They can have random long term crush on random people at work, but never make anything happen. Being a taurus, or partly taurus, maybe i'm like that as well. I guess i just have that sagitarius side in me, who always kicks in and pumps through that rush of blood to the head. Who knows...

 

Am I lost? Some how i was so busy and contend today. Feelings very isolated, didnt even start a conversation at work. Maybe its the weather, maybe its the extreme milo coffee tea combo i drank at work, or maybe its the fact that reading CNN/BBC news is really creeping me out inside. Who knows, i'm still around, another year, another month, another day, another hour....

 

Before you know it, i'm no longer 21....

我想要稳定又想要自由。是吗？

 

还是得挣扎下去，总比直接的接受the whole idea of 'THAT's LIFE'要好很多。

 

因为6000多首MP3都没了，开始寻找新的音乐。开始考虑RNB和HIPHOP类型的东西。反正该有的器材都有了。试试看把，为了音乐和自己而写音乐，会是什么感觉呢。

 

哦，昨晚ENROLL了CFA。下星期应该再ENROLL个PS146。等材料寄来的时候，就得忙死了。

 

再次为自己，那个射手的自己祈祷。

 

看看一个手指那么长，又从上到下彻底double joint，而且有很特别声音的人都还在抱怨自己没有天赋。觉得很满足。

 

星期六一早起来帮朋友开新车回家。CIVIC。很漂亮，个人很喜欢，但是速度太慢了，而且感觉很不结实。果然是很complete的车子。

 

晚上和朋友吃饭。意大利的东西，很油腻，可是做得很精致。收到了很喜欢的礼物。还以为今年生日没礼物了。第一份，嗯，很意外。不过想想有很合适。觉得送我的人应该陪我在后院玩Catch。可可爱的礼物，一直都想要。可能因为缺少类似的东西，我始终不能向男性化的方向发展。不过终于得到了，得准备去露营了！

 

第二份，嗯。哦别因为我没先说这份就不满意。本来就在考虑要改变一下。来得很是时候，很喜欢的味道。很JASON的牌子-__-'

 

晚上去唱歌，然后和两个朋友聊了很久。很怀念呢。本来因为很久没见觉得很陌生，可是后来发现，有些事情是永远不会改变的，冬天夜晚的印尼烟，雨夜某处的长谈。有些了解自己的朋友真的很幸福。

 

星期天，醒来。很饿。听说Dolce Ganbana有SALE。跑了出去。3个小时以后。吃了罚单。还是很饿。放弃了对衬衫的希望。上帝根本就不应该创造衬衫这种不合理的衣服。嗯！买了PAUL SMITH的Strip POLO TOP，还买了件看起来很GAY穿上去更GAY，但是很合适的衣服。Custome National又向意大利迈出了一步。

一周又过了。星期五，casual friday,然后不知怎么的就到周末。想清楚了要同时读CFA和PS146，明年应该能忙个够呛吧。号称30%PASS率的课程到底有多难呢-_-'

 

电脑坏了，坏得很是时候。全部东西都没有了。10多年的回忆。该没的都没有了。一点不剩。生活在一片寂静中。没有了mp3，没有了电影，连根我那么多年的ACDSEE CLASSIC都没了。很伤感，不过适应了，觉得清新得很舒服。

 

工作很顺利，很闲。两晚选择性加班，实在很理想。每天开开玩笑，大家都熟了，好像一个大家庭一样。

 

朋友最近心情不好，可怜啊，真不能理解面对感情问题的人们。心情不好出去走走就好了...

 

生日就到了，往年来都会自己买礼物给自己。不知道今年该要点什么，烦恼中。跑了5公里来思考，还是没想清楚，明天继续吧。

 

星期六想晒太阳，居然要下雨。

 

上班时候研究了大牌子秋季的新衣服。很喜欢GUCCI和CHANEL的IDEA。真的很漂亮，相比起来，PRADA女性衣服，好像真有点太那个了。-_-'

 

肩膀已经成形，手臂也够大了，准备好，明年开始努力往上爬！