Weekend past by, still sleepy.

 

Saw the host. Very korean indeed. I like it. Grocery store family, beautiful monster, above all, A DAUGHTER! What more could i ask for==

 

Saw Shrek III as well, it's a heavy film. Damn, it's sad that i can actually relate to it, but on a brighter side, it taught me something in return. Still sad.

 

Began writing. Will continue this time. Trying to keep it as simple as possible. So i can stick to it. I must!

 

Alright, honestly i have nothing to talk about. Lets just end here.

Just read an article on SMH, title "dad, what's recession like". Far out. I've been paranoid about a recession for weeks now. It ain't getting any better. USD Deposite rate is something i look at daily. Cash tenor used to hang around 5.5-5.8 depending on the market. I used to think the world will end if it drops 100 basis points. Seriously tho, it went down 100 basis point since the first sign of subprime crisis. Now it's around 3.2-3.4 mark up and down.

 

If you ask me, i feel like one of them war films. Your friends sit there going, yeah yeah, nothing's going wrong before you know it they wipe out the entire tutsi population. Or take over 3 states in your country. Then you run around helplessly and try to survive, but you can't. Well it probably won't go so bad, but i seriously can't imagine myself wondering the street searching for odd jobs like the 30s==

 

On a brighter note, i turn up to work friday with a copy of MX on my desk. Now it aint you everyday MX alright, it's got my picture on the cover==. My manager actually manage to photocopy my picture and stick it on MX== apparently that news' got my name on it. Mmm, well having a read into it, does sound very much like something i would do. Yeah, it's that Soc Gen guy and he's trading. Apparently this guy start off in derivative back office, got sent to front office. Manage to hide he's position through back to back structured deals. Unfortunately he didn't have enough market experience and since all he's position was hidden, no one could hedge he's risk for him. Manager said to me, i can even picture this scene when i come into the room and go, JASON what are you doing, this is crazy and you said, don't worry man, it's all hidden and they'll thank me later. A week later, senior management rang him up, alright, your fired, your boss is fired and oh by the way, Jason's fired.. Haha, if you were to get out of the market, what beats a 82 yard loss, i guess Soc Gen world wide won't get their Xmas party this year.

 

On an even brighter note, someone's hittin on my mum. Dam, she's totally freaking out. She said, if it's a guy i'm used to it, but this time it's a woman! Hahaha.. apparently she comes around and hang around the shop all day asking her to go over and have a drink together. Mmmm... i would give it a try, but then it's not me... mmmm

 

Anyway, happy Oz day...

 

 

 

Sag - Buddy, it's got to be you.

Leo - The person who says, Go to hell, Jason...

Tau - I have a strong tendency of meeting Taurus friends. Since primary school to work. I guess i'm popular to the anti social people. I think my Taurus person is probably Steven... well used to be anyway.

Capri - It's so difficult to deal with Caps. I hate them. They such plain and boring people. Then again, stereotype's got to snapout somehow. I've met this person lately, amazing similarities between the two of us, mmmm we hate the world and work hard. He probably hated it a bit more than i do, but oh well.

 

On a darker note, today is probably one of those days that will go down in the history of Citi. Another USD 18MMM sub prime write-off. Yes, 3 x M = 1 Billion. 180 yard. And guess one, as soon as the figure goes out, so did a few of well respected people. Never see anyone get sack like this before. Oh well, i suppose it's a harsh real world. When your a profit center, you have to make profit, if you don't, you out even faster than the cost center. I guess these people probably saw it comming the moment Prince stood down. Oh well.

 

On the other hand, you have this massive growth country, ran by a bunch of monkeys. I'm talking about MONKEYS! They reply email asking for the definition of modified following, ring up asking to change revaluation process. They deserve to be sacked but who's gonna make a call when their trading head made 320MM for the bank last year.

 

Oh a brighter note, just sign up for corporate games again. Got our ass kicked by Optus last year, after a group of Turbanator turn up with their crick hat and Suns cream mask in Cricket. This year, it's soccer. Never realised we had that many semi professional soccer people at work. This is gonna be fun. I guess soccer is better than cricket, but at 90 minutes per game + full court, i think i need to be smoking while playing==

 

Thats about all for today. Salut to those who stood down, you'll be gone but not forgotten.

This is gonna be a tough one.

I can sense it ever since Xmas eve.

 

If a song can describe my mood, i would say Nirvana, "All Apologies".

 

Being a practise hardcore southern chinese, i beleive in this whole good year bad year fotune telling business.

 

Based on my 6 letter, this is not a good year. It wasn't terrible like 2005 but it won't be anywhere as good as 2007.

 

Fuck, why am i writing blog in my email style==

 

Ok let me stop. Anyway, i will write down my new new year's resolution 2008.

In order to step out of the cliche and my previous failure, i will keep it practical and simple. after all, i can't ask for anything decent in a year when i have to rely on red undies for self-protection.

 

1. Survive - Yes, that's important. I feel like dying since Xmas eve. Everyday things fuck up at work. I'm talking servere mental breakdown fuck ups. Related to me or not, i have felt the effect. And it aint nice.

2. Fill out the Applications and bring my wife here.

3. Go back to zer gym. After a year's off, a trip to china and a marriage deal, i've realised that not only my designer label doesn't feet, even my usual day to day suit is shrinking... Fuck

4. Quit. Yes, i strongly doubt that i can do it. I mean i'm trying to be realistic here. I know that if i don't, i'll die someday soon. I'm not talking about next 20 years, i can feel it comming in next few weeks, so yeah, it's good bye to my long beloved friend.

5. Write. I have alot of day dreaming time. Times where i can sit there, i can't do anything else, but i'm still sitting there. In between huge emails, waiting for print outs, waiting for outlook to process my deletion of 4,000 unread emails... In the past few days, i have been contemplating, and i had some decent marterial. Now all i need to do is research and plan, so i can really write something.

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Below are personal goals for work. For those of you who bitch about me talking about my thang, please skip.

6. 7 Day repo, Cap Vol, Oasys Order Form Maintenance, CDS Bond clean up, Rateset Advices Automation, HKD Payment Automation... Get all these done, i should be able to maintain my rank for the year. Given that i can survive all the major fuck ups and become pyschologically stronger.

7. Invest. I don't have any cash to spare, US market is going down, Sub prime crisis haven't even hit Oz. Given all that, i still want to invest. Research require.

 

That's about it.

 

In conclusion, this is a year of 韬光養晦